“I’m getting to the point where I don’t have an inherent trust in my body like I did when I was younger. For a 31 year old, I feel like my body is maybe like a 45 year old. I have a pretty melancholic disposition, so it’s really easy for me to just feel that way all the time, unless I’m getting a rush of endorphins from exercising. Its been more invasive over the last couple of years. The stress in my life has increased. I’ve diminished my time working a normal job, and put more time trying to make music happen, and that involves so many tiny steps forward, and huge steps backwards. I think a lot of that stress has caused me to feel pretty burnt out. It’s easy to get down when you’re trying really hard and hoping to see certain results that are honestly kind of unrealistic. It makes that depressive mode come into effect. But working out helps. It’s like a whole attitude shift. I can instantly feel it. When I get home from a jog or a bike ride, I’m like that thing I felt really terrible about, somehow I don’t feel as terrible about it. I would love for that switch that happens in my brain that triggers self loathing, depression, and anxiety to not exist, so I can be the person I want to be all the time. But it’s super hard. I feel like I’m in the early stages of figuring out what that is. I know that one simple thing like exercise is huge. I’ve experienced those times where I do feel well and I want that all the time.”